ways I have failed

scarling I believe
in love
in echoes
forever

I knew our stars were faulted
The same way I knew that I couldn't stand them disarrayed

I wove you slowly
steadily
into my tendons

and I refuse any dimension that finds us ceasing

just pretend I am a man
and not a knot in your chest

I will pretend that I'm not gasping for breath

you are my barbed catalyst
that I refuse to release

I will proudly dress my wounds in the mirror
knowing that everything will be better than I was

there is no part of me undoctored
no words ungreened
and no fiber untorn

you were never just a prompt
but you were always more than my thin hands could manage

I always knew you would outgrow me